October

It's so soon october is reached & 3 more  months to go 2011 is going to pass.I seriously don't like october at all. I feel much tension everyday.7days left to my CIE. I'm really nervous about that.So hectic.Somehow feel like barely surviving -.- Sound bit serious hor lol.My mood swings like nobody knows.Ok,i think it shall be pms.

The most phathetic moment is when you're having exam,the time & process you prepare for your exam & the moment when you're going to get your results.And I'm fucking phathetic now! I don't wanna resit my CIE,it is a NO!

I hate that kind of feeling.I don't like to make a decision that need to sacrifice or it will forgo anything.The more i feel exhausted the more i want to chill & going out.Also,study & him are a very very very hard decision for me to make.Of course,with other externalities.I really hate that kind of feeling.F*ck.

Once i think of my coming CIE & it reminds me he's going back soon.Fine,he decided to go back early & soon I will be like forever alone & taking my major exam alone without a SDR(short distance relationship haha) lol what a stupid & absurd thinking.Yet,it's abit sad.And i know he might see my post(maybe he wont since he rarely on9 now Lol) & i'm not going to say any other thing since he've decided lol.Nonetheless i'm just wondering what can he do after the day of his training as he still left 5days to college reopen.


Keep calm & carry on.