Change is fast.

Once i on my lappy today, my mind came across with " change is fast " suddenly.

Yes,being gritty does pay off. Because change is fast.But why? Why i changed slow compare to him? Ok.. i always realise things slow. Until now,oni i realise about that. I realised it's my problem that im not determine enough.So? my change is slow. I do have some changes & improvement,but compare to him,i'm not as good as him.

I start to self - belittle when i think of him.Well,thinking of another side to convert this self-belittle.Actually the methods he gave are too tough for me? Or he's just too passion & interested on this? Or the personalities i have for this 18years are not so easy to change? Or sometimes in some other special situations,i'll just out of control & fail to handle? Just sometimes? Or he used to find solutions everytime? The one whole year,i've learnt a lots of method from him.But the methods seem like keep changing? So i can't adapt? Or i ain't adaptable? Omg. I don't know what's im thinking now.Somehow i'm tired of these.

Everyone has the own flaws.So human beings can stay & communicate with each other well is not that easy.We might cannot accept this people like that,and other people might feel in the same way to us too.Take an example,my dad has a bad habit that all of us do not like,which is he will never lock the door in our house,it's dangerous right.But he'll keep finding excuses for himself.We urged him for so many years,sometimes we even raise our volume & show the anger towards him,but he doesn't change.See,izit he's not determine enough? So change is slow.Ok,while comparing to my dad,i'll feel better,because he changes even slower than me right?

However,whenever i think of he's putting so much effort on himself & me,but my improvement & changes are slow.I feel guilty.I used up the rm100 voucher to buy 3 self-enrichment books.Two will be in chinese,another one will be in english.Actually i prefer to take the english version of " the secret power ",but the price is double of the chinese version.So..it's ok la. The rest of rm100,i must fully utilise it.

Ok,change is fast.Ymei,stop comparing. Just prove it.