Change.

As time changes, people around change and eventually something have changed at the same time..

Now i realize why Matthew Arnold would use the word " sea " in the Dover Beach to express humans' feelings. All humans being have their own emotional waves, unless you're not a human. The sea is not always calm and tranquil, it has waves which symbolize human's ups and downs feelings,am i right? Of course it depends on how are you going to handle & conquer your own feelings. Some people choose to be happy instead of choosing to be sad, but who doesn't want to be happy?

Some people are born to be optimistic, some are more pessimistic , some are more emotional. If you're an optimistic person, it's a good thing. If you're not, how are you going to change yourself to be more optimistic? or you never think to change before? I am used to see some people who are more pessimistic, because i think i am not that optimistic type. Well, frankly , i think when girls are sad, they like to find someone to voice out the negative feeling and eventually they feel much better OR they would not sad anymore. I think i am one of them.

I don't like people to see my depression as a big issue EVERY TIME. Whenever i voice out, some will think i am emo again and showing the black face to me like " why you always like that?! ". Fuck this shit. Hate that shit.

There are so many unhappy things happen during this semester. I feel so exhausted till i don't know how should i handle my problems. I feel like bursting out my tears whenever i feel like no one is there for me,including the people i love. It's the melancholy........

No matter how, i have the responsible to study hard with having a satisfy or good results for my degree , this is what and the only thing my dad wants me to do.